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Sunday, August 7, 2011

Memory Keeper

Do you ever think about the ones that hold your memories? Each second,minute,day,month,year we create memories. Some memories are better than others but regardless of what the memory is, at some point you share them with someone else. Maybe it's your mom, dad,brother,sister,best friend, cousin, ex-girlfriend,ex-boyfriend, etc.. Whoever they are, they are forever linked to a certain memory filled segment in your life. I can't help but think of all the memories I have created and of the ones that have shared those moments with me.

To someone else:
But what about the memories that you've created? What about the memories that have nothing to do with me? For example, college years, past birthdays, etc.. I recognize that I'm part of your life now, together we make memories that look nothing like years before, but it still doesn't stop me from wondering. There are significant others who hold those memory pieces whether they are good or bad, they are linked to the specific moment in time with you. When you go back and think about your teenage years, or when you think about your childhood, you will never be able to link any of those memories to me. People you've met, who you might have only met once or twice now hold those memories.
In the meantime, I was creating memories of my own, younger years, teenage years, high school years, and I hadn't even met you yet--there are those that hold pieces to my past just like you have too.

I can't go back and change things, you can't go back and change things either.. No one can! I was introduced to you at a specific moment in time, (it's not what I would have wanted, sometimes I wish I would have watched you grow up, or even had gone to the same high school as you) but, would that have changed things?
Sometimes I think that if things would have gone my way, I would have screwed it all up. That's why I left it all in God's hands and he knew exactly when we would meet. God didn't want me to have any pieces of your past memories. He didn't want you to hold any pieces of my past either...I understand now, we are slowly creating new memory pieces together and they are beautiful. You hold every single one of my memory pieces now-we are linked together, there is no one else who gets to hold them but you....and I wouldn't have it any other way..

I'm glad you didn't meet me when I hated the world
I'm glad you didn't make memories with me when I was self-centered and stubborn
I'm glad you are not linked to the days when I wanted to end my life.
When I think of you, when I think of us, I think of NOW, I think of TOMORROW, I think of FOREVER....and those are the memories that will last a lifetime.

the ones I NEVER WANT TO FORGET....