A song for the love of my life, because I miss him sooo much

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"Make You Feel My Love"

When the rain is blowing in your face,
And the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love.

I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
But I would never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
No doubt in my mind where you belong.

I'd go hungry; I'd go black and blue,
I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret.
Though winds of change are blowing wild and free,
You ain't seen nothing like me yet.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
To make you feel my love

Dear Grandpa:

I know you will never read my letters to you but I have to get this off my chest. I think about you all the time, and I cry almost every day. Grandpa, why did you leave us? Why weren't we worth it to you? Why did you drive away from me? Why didn't you fight for your family? How are you doing? Are you ok? Do you have enough to eat? Are your hands tired from working all day? Is your hair turning more grey as the days pass by? Are you miserable? Do you think of us when you wake up, or have you erased us from your memory? We are all still here. We have managed to survive without you. You used to be our everything. You were our rock, the one we looked up to, the one we were proud of... We adored you!

Grandpa, I just got engaged! I wish with all of my heart that I could have called you to tell you. I'm getting married Grandpa.. Remember when you promised to be at my wedding? Remember when you told me that one day I would make a beautiful bride? It's finally here and i'm broken inside because I know you won't be there. You won't see me in my beautiful white dress, you won't hold my face in your hands and kiss me on the forehead like you used to. I won't see you cry tears of joy, and you won't see me on one of the most important days of my life.

I'm happy Grandpa, I found the man of my dreams and he's nothing like you. He doesn't lie, and he loves me completely.. You would be so proud, you would be happy to know that I'm going to be alright..

I know I will cry on my wedding day when I look around and realize that you are not there. But for now, I will hold my head up and I'll move on. I'll let you know in this letter that you are not invited. I don't want you to call me or write me. I want nothing to do with you. Just know that all of my dreams have come true. The dreams you had for me are coming true.. It's just so sad that you are no longer a part of any of them.. I cry for you, and you're not worth it.

Goodbye Grandpa

The Proposal August 27 2011

August 27th 2011

The day started out as a blessing. I was able to serve alongside my boyfriend(now fiance) at Adopt-a-Block Ministry. I enjoyed every minute of it, and fell completely in love with the opportunity to serve others. My boyfriend then presented a wonderful idea to me " Let's go to Napa" he said...and I said "yes!" Napa is one of the most beautiful places on earth and on this occasion, we would be visiting a real castle. The day grew hotter and hotter, but we still made our way to Castillo de Amoroso and I was blown away. The most gorgeous castle I have ever seen! It was so beautiful, almost dreamy like---unreal! We were there for maybe an hour because I decided to not take my boyfriends advice on taking the guided tour(my fault).....

Since I get really moody when it's super hot-I told my boyfriend to a) take me to a movie where it's nice and cool or b) take me home! I'm horrible I know :)

But, he has another idea... he says, "let's go to SanFrancisco?" I say yes and we get in the car and head towards San Fran... Little did we know that there would be tons of traffic and horrible weather... Even though there was tons of traffic, I was enjoying my ride with him... I don't get to see him often, so any opportunity I get to be with him is amazing! Even if it's sitting in traffic with him... I'll take it..... We drove for hours and the fog would not go away... Jr ended up taking a wrong exit twice, and we ended up paying toll twice.... all of this made the mood in the car very tense.... In my mind I had removed the possibility of a proposal because the weather was so bad... Jr was angry at the weather and the wrong exit and his gps not working that I really didn't think anything was going to happen.. I'm sure he though the same.. The weather was horrible on a summer day.... and after going off the wrong exit again... Jr decided to end our trip, after our many failed attempts... and just go home!

So i agreed, let's go home....we had been driving for a while and the weather was ridiculous! But... what we didn't know, was that God was working it all out for us... Just ten minutes after we decided to head home, we turn and see the fog lifting, and a pink sky settling in.

It started off slow, light pink, dark light pink, darker pink, and then full on pink sky.... Jr, quickly got off on an exit and we ended up in this neighborhood with a pathway to a beach.... Jr said we had to take a picture together and I agreed, it was something quite rare! Jr pulls me out of the car, we walk quickly down the path and to the beach for a picture... He asks two guys if they would kindly take a picture and they said " no!"

To those two guys I say: Thank you for saying no because you probably would have run off with our cameras!

We ask another couple and they say yes!! Jr is happy and I'm happy and he asks me to position myself under the pink sky, because at any moment it could all disappear and we would have no proof of it! So, down to the beach I went, and Jr explained to the couple how to properly use the camera... As we were taking pictures, I held on to him tightly, and smiled!

Then, all of a sudden Jr gets on one knee... I said "are you serious?" I was completely taken by surprise! He was about to ask me to be his wife, and just moments ago we had been stuck in traffic with fog, rain, wind, and horrible gps satellite reception. But, it was real... my once in a lifetime moment had arrived... Jr looked up at me with the ring in his hand... With tears in his eyes he asked me to marry him...... I said YES!!!! I looked around and started to cry... It was a dream come true... Here was the man of my dreams down on one knee, and a pink sky all around us... This is how I imagined it, it seemed impossible, a dream that couldn't quite possibly come true... but it did... The love of my life asked me the most important question of my life... he asked me to be his wife.. to be his lifetime partner, to be his forever... and without a doubt in my mind I said yes!!! Seconds later he puts the ring on my finger.. A gorgeous absolutely stunning ring on my finger and I about faint just looking at it!!

Everything felt unreal... but it was very very real! God, the creator of the earth made it possible for Jr to make my dream come true... He loves us, he cares for us, he listens to us when we make silly requests like " proposing under a pink sky!"..... Those couple of minutes are engraved in my memory forever.... I will soon be Mrs. Lopez.... May 26th will be OUR wedding day... and we will become husband and wife!....

Dear husband to be: You have made me the happiest woman on earth. You could have dismissed my silly request for a pink sky, but you didn't.. That's the kind of love you have for me, the kind of love that will go out of it's way to make the impossible become reality! You love me and I love you with everything that I am.. I will say "yes" for the rest of my life.... Soon it will be "I Do" ......and yes, I DO want to be your wife, and I Do want to wake up to you every morning... I Do want to share my life with you.... and I Do believe that God created you just for me.....

Let the celebration and planning begin! We are getting married!