Gone

Dear Grandpa, 

It seems like centuries ago but it has only been 4 years. Four painful years since you decided to leave us with nothing but lies and broken hearts. I look at this picture and I feel betrayed. I feel disgusted! I wish I could rip my arm off of your shoulder. If I had only known the truth I wouldn't have come within 10 feet from you. 

I look happy, as happy as a fool. You, you look proud, of course because you are surrounded by your beautiful granddaughters. We were too little to understand that you were a lying cheating man! If only I would have known!! Why didn't any one tell me!!!!!!! Why did I grow up believing in your lies...... You are not a grandfather to me or to any of us... You dirty bastard! You man whore! You're a pathetic excuse for a man!!!! You coward!! I wish I would have never known you! If I wouldn't have ever met you, at least I could have made you up in my mind... I could have imagined a "better version of you".... I could have dreamt you up to be a real hero... ANYTHING, but what you Truly are.... 

I hate the pain you have caused me..  I hate that you haunt me in my dreams.. I hate that you left your wife, sons and daughters. I hate that your grandkids still wonder how you are... I hate you for breathing and living a lie... I hate you for what you have become....... 

I'm trying to get you out of my head... I need to RIP you out of my heart...... I can no longer hold on to the idea that I was once so close to you... HOW COULD I HAVE EVER KNOWN THAT I WOULD GROW UP TO HATE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE YOU!! I DESPISE YOU!!!!!